piss boy​/​/​evaporated girl

by cullan bonilla

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this is a split between two friends who make music together in a band called leaky soups.

black cassettes w/ lyric zines available here thru VHS records: vhsrecordings.storenvy.com/products/11333502-cullan-bonilla-movies-piss-boy-evaporated-girl-ii-cassette-booklet

more from movies aka kevin goldfinger:
captainmovies.bandcamp.com

all music & lyrics by cullan bonilla and kevin goldfinger respectively, with the exception of the sample in “halves,” which was taken from like crazy (2011), and the beat in “piss boy,” which was taken from an old casio sampler found on the world wide web.

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released January 22, 2015

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Track Name: half moon
don’t go anywhere
don’t go, don’t go

you were growing thinner
and i was too afraid to mention that
or the cigarettes you were
consuming by the pack
i didn’t know what to say
about the bags under your eyes
not to mention the ones on the floor
but i knew you were sad before
and all i can hope is one day
you won’t be sad anymore
just don’t go anywhere

don’t go, don’t go
please don’t go anywhere
Track Name: a running list (9/20/14, 1:07am)
i made a list of all my bad habits
i’d like to break them but i’ll need practice
and i’ll need time
and maybe somebody to keep me in line

‘cause i always eat dinner at 3am
but i never stay awake for our conversations
and i can’t stop biting my nails
and i can’t stop forgetting my pills
and i always lose my keys
and i always take things personally
it’s silly

i put my head down
i think a dumb amount
Track Name: piss boy
text me some bullshit
dripping with pretension
about being decent
about having a conversation

but i don’t owe you anything
and i have no interest in your game
i wish i’d known the rules before i played

text me some bullshit about
how your side of the story
is the only one that counts
“don’t tell your side,
apologize,
and drop it”

but i don’t owe you anything
i have no interest in your game
because i learn from my mistakes
now i know better than to play
Track Name: halves
some nights i wake up shaking because
i’m so afraid
and i know what it’s really like to be lonely
’cause i can feel you in my sleep an inch too far away

i’m trying not to let it matter
but i’m smiling so hard it hurts
Track Name: movies - storm clouds
you told me everyone was dead
you cannot explain yourself, but i can
Track Name: movies - erie
don’t ever forget this: the past is dead and has been
and these bookless pages work like a muscle relaxant
and these misplaced nightmares are a geographic message

don’t ever regret this: it hurts but it happened
i’m taking a trip now; i’m not saying where
i was evaporated in sunshowers again
i’m passing worms on
sidewalks, stepping in the soft dirt
i was evaporated in sunshowers again
i’m climbing up the tall tree, healing all my sunburns
i was evaporated in sunshowers again

i just need to heal, and so do they
sundust draws the circles above our sleeping heads
and everything i whisper
just runs fleeting like a dream
the fruits we crave are drowned and distant compared to the trees
funeral cakes and blue dresses were only brief prevails
Track Name: movies - evaporated girl
evaporated girl went running away
she was never there at all, so she melted away
last tuesday’s rain fell anyway,
to chase her to a pocket-sized space
evaporated girl, i can’t breathe,
i’m drowning
please help me get to shore with seagulls sounding
seaweed tangled ‘round my waist with salt surrounding

my feet touched home on a patch of narrow gravestones,
in a factory, i’m rain clothed
sent shivers down the frail bones,
it’s a viral place and i’m prone

depression’s a pet
sometimes it leaves, it comes back
sometimes it leaves, it goes